Archive | September, 2002

Workaholism

22 Sep

I have a twitch in my right eye… or rather right underneith it. It’s a sign that i’m really tired. It’s sunday… i still don’t feel rested.. didn’t really do much as going out on the weekend. slept most of saturday. i don’t care if this post isn’t grammatically correct. i suppose i’ve started a routine of sorts… goes something like.. wake up at 5:30… be at work by 7:30… work all day… get back to the office from the field anywhere from 5:30 to 7:30 at night.. then get home from the office anywhere from 8:30 to 11pm. altho getting home closer to 10 or 11 was the norm this past week. I hardly see my family.. i really miss my dog.. and being disconnected from the net and all of you guys sucks. but MAN do i LOVE my job. As tiring as it is.. i love it.. every minute of it. I got promoted into leadership 1 week after i started… a record in the office. I started training a new guy that day and now he’s on his own already. I shooting for him to make it into leadership by the end of this week. basically.. when you make it into leadership you start training new people. once you build your team of 5 training managers under you then you are promoted into leadership. If all goes perfectly smoothly (and we know it won’t) then i will be the manager of my own office in 3 months… more realistically it’s going to be anywhere from 5 to 7 months. it’s great i love my coworkers they are such awesome people. life has been rather satisfying. altho my social life is going down the tubes and my email box is always overloaded when i finally get the chance to check it….

Burning Ringers… i miss u guys… it’s great to hear that the brof chat is again active. dayna.. glad to see you back in the ring.. love the new site. Dusty and John.. my whole hearted congrats… ^^ … Nick.. always glad to read your updates… i’m beginning to understand the weirdness of being outside all day. it can be nice.. but usually the heat of the day makes you feel like you’re running around in the devil’s armpit >.< I can’t wait until it starts to cool down. In anycase… you guys.. i’ll try and keep you all updated… at least once a week *hugs*

I am still alive…

17 Sep

ok.. i’m still alive and kicking… just insanely busy with the new job. i love it. i don’t have much time for anything these days let alone spending time online. i feel so disconnected from all of you. I got promoted last week to a leader! yay~ will give u guys a better update as soon as i get the change.

delirious…

5 Sep

ok.. started the new job.. i’m so exhausted everyday that i don’t really have the energy to update. things are going great.. it’s hard work, but i love it. i’m moving right along.. i’ll go more into detail maybe over the weekend.. time to hit the sac… ZZZzzzzz

Jerry Maguire moments…

1 Sep

“It is fine to walk for a while as the last one in any group, and it is acceptable to spend time mingling in the middle, but ultimately everyone must at some time lead. You have no way of understanding leadership roles until you assume that responsibility. Everyone must experience all of these roles at some time, without exception, sooner or later, if not in this lifetime, sometime! The only way to pass any test is to take the test. All tests on every level are always repeated one way or another until you pass.”

Mutant Message Down Under – Marlo Morgan
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So i sit here at home on a disgustingly hot Sunday. I start my new job on Tuesday. I’m frankly not quite so enthused as I should be. It’s unpleasant, I’m going to have to walk around in this heat in full professional attire. I have gotten 2 traffic tickets in the past 3 days. I’m flat broke. … and yet, I feel resolute rather than discouraged. I feel like this is something i know i have to do… getting out of my comfort zone. Work hard. probably work harder than i have ever worked in my rather privileged life. I will be earning every single penny i make with honest hard work. no free rides. no one to blame but myself if i don’t succeed. i feel myself ‘hunkering down’ i sound rather dramatic about all this.. but yet it is symbolic… there is a huge significance for me. this isn’t just a new job. this about me choosing to walk away from something that was easy, comfortable. i knew mt. sac like the back of my hand. it’s almost like working for family. i don’t have a sense of reality there. it’s too different from the rest of the working world. i think i sound rather pretentious.. *shrug* it’s how i’m feeling. this change is long overdue. .. continuing the journey toward becoming the person i have always wanted to be.